Roller Coaster Life

It's like the feeling I get when I'm on a roller coaster
and it's at the top
and it's ready to drop
and thoughts are racing across my brain
and my heart goes numb and I'm wondering,
"do I really wanna do this? It may hurt! It's a long way down! It may fly off the track! ....Oh But it's gonna be so much fun!!"
I'm still trying to get my heart back out of my throat and I'm still trying to calm my nerves...
The excitement is rising as I take my focus off of how far away the ground is
and focus on
how close I am to the sky.
Just not quiiiiite to where I wanna throw up my hands and holler as I plunge over the edge..
*laugh*
It's like my first roller coaster ride as a big girl, after my initial experience as a child when I cried the whole way through...